Good at heart…. Handsome by features…. Humbly intelligent….
This were the traits that I have found in you, from every stare that you throws at me that almost knocks me off-guard, for every smile that you give me that dispersed the shade of black and gray of my day, from your voice that always assures me that everything will going to be ok, but how will you know my feelings and admiration to you that if I tell you things will changed cause you are my friend…
I have started this quiet admiration to you when you were just on your first years of your High School days, I am not so showy with my feelings for you because you are so “strikto, suplado, maldito” so I just kill this infatuation that I have for you…
Years had passed as I come back to this institution you have grown up from a young child to a heartthrob man, those childish acts had disappeared, and those “binata” actions had also diminished. You see me as your big brother and a friend but I see you more than that. I will never ask for more than a friend or for us to be a lover…That was so disgusting!!! All I am asking is you to be close to my heart…
During the days of our Division Secondary Schools Press-Conference I am hesitant to get close to you cause I don’t want to get hurt again by your rejection but still I did all I can muster to reach you inner core and at the end of the DSSPC you became victorious…
Digos City is one of the most memorable places with moments with you. Those “laag-laag” with just the two of us, the net surfing, going to church with just the two of us, even the sleeping in the night that we have to be side by side, whew that was nothing to you but for me that was a memory worth reminiscing. Even we haven’t conquered the RSSPC still God give me a chance to know you deeper more than as I have expected.
Maybe it’s just because I am having this feelings towards you because of the pain that I am carrying, the burden that Christian Paul had done to me. Maybe it was too late for me to confess this and I will never going to tell you because as what the common phrase goes by “Forget the times he walked you by, Forget the times he made you cry, Remember now you are not the same. Forget the times he held you hands, forget the sweet things if you can, forget the times and don’t pretend, Remember he was just your FRIEND.”
The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go and knowing when to say goodbye. But I am still happy that you have let me feel this that even you don’t have a queue I know you will soon know… Guess am down to my end whatever may happen MY GREAT SECRET will never be known and I will always love you until my life ends…
